Sometimes life doesn't go how we think it should or what we feel we deserve. And right now, I feel that way. In many ways, I have a wonderful life and I am so thankful for all that I have. And at the same time I can't help but feel a bit sad. This is my first Christmas not with Carsten since we met in 2002 and it feels weird. I guess the heart wants what it wants, even if it doesn't want us back.
In other news, my new apartment will not be ready on January 1st as expected and thus I have to wait until at least February 1st to get into it. Living with Chris is great and I am very happy to be here with him, but I also know I need my own space and a place to call home. I recognize I just need to be a bit more patient, but after living in limbo for what feels like an eternity I just need my own sanctuary.
On the plus side, my furniture arrived today and so whenever I do move into my place at least I will have stuff to put in it :)
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Hi Bill -
ReplyDeleteI am moving into a new apartment myself. The last place I had was furnished, so I eliminated most of my furniture, and now I'm in this ugly position of having to move in, needing to buy furniture, and work work work. Very stressful.
Anyways, I had a very lonely Christmas myself. My usual gang that I have Christmas with here went to the mainland, my boyfriend decided to be snitty before he flew away to the Big Island with his family. I went to some parties with people that I barely know - so strange.
Anyways, all this is to say - I'm thinking of you. My sister has purchased real estate in Stoughton, so I guess my next trip is going to be to visit her. I'm hopeful that I'll get to see you.
Love you,
Mathias