The Black Veil Of Depression

It has been quite obvious to me that I have battled with depression for a number of years. Back in the 90's I was on medication to help with it but since then I have tried to better manage my moods on my own. At times I have been more successful with this than at other points in my life. Right now I can recognize that I am struggling some again. I had thought that once things started to turn around in my life (i.e. job, vehicle, apt) I would begin to feel better. I know the conversation that occurred on Christmas is the driving force behind my current mood, but I need to do something to shake it. On Monday, I sat at my desk and cried for a bit before lunch. After lunchtime the same thing occurred. Once back home I cried a lot and just couldn't get out of bed. Now it is Tuesday morning, I am sitting at home in front of my computer wondering how I ended up in this place and what I need to do to make it through. Much of my life is going well and I am very thankful and grateful for all that I have, but the part that is not going well is so emotionally painful that it really feels to outweigh all the good. Maybe this happens to everyone; maybe I am just weaker than I thought? I know I will be happy again, I just thought I was closer to it than I actually am!